| I have returned |
[Oct. 1st, 2008|04:54 pm] |
And I have a new account even though I very much like how I'm member number 308919 on this account. Oh well. We all need changes.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) stringedgyre
See you there. |
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| Number 198... |
[Oct. 1st, 2003|10:03 am] |
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| | STANCE PUNKS || Mayonaka Shounen Totsugeki Dan | ] |
Yeah. This is my 198th LJ entry. Hard to believe, eh?
I've decided to pack up and move journals. I'm dead serious on this... I realized that I can't post anything deep on here anymore without someone like that person (usukthebigdik) coming along and using it against me. So I'm going to stop seriously updating my LJ. Don't worry... I'll still update, but my entries will lack the usual insight that they usually do. From now on, my LJ entires will consist of trivial things, and I may only update once or twice every two weeks. Maybe even once or twice a month. Who knows?
For those of you who are interested in acquiring the URL to my new journal, just comment in this post and leave your e-mail address or your AIM SN. Also, BE SURE TO IDENTIFY WHO YOU ARE. I will not e-mail or IM you if you do not identify who you are! ('course, some of you will get the URL regardless of whether or not you comment in this post.)
It's been a great two years, guys... Thanks for everything. It's meant a lot to me. I'll see you all later... Maybe.
- David Phan
10-1-03 |
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| The return of the mystery IMer... |
[Sep. 27th, 2003|06:36 pm] |
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| [ | Current Music |
| | Hikaru Utada || Hikari | ] |
It's shorter. I suppose my mystery assailant doesn't have much to say after attempting to insult me once.
USukTHeBigDiK (4:32:57 PM): sup fag
USukTHeBigDiK (4:33:18 PM): ready for monday
dot VIVID (4:33:18 PM): Needing to boost your ego?
USukTHeBigDiK (4:33:40 PM): read your journal who the hell is leo u fag
dot VIVID (4:34:00 PM): Why do you want to know?
USukTHeBigDiK (4:34:09 PM): sorry he aint gonna like you only straight people go to central
dot VIVID (4:34:23 PM): And you care.. Why?
USukTHeBigDiK (4:34:34 PM): cause your fing gay
USukTHeBigDiK (4:34:43 PM): you queir
dot VIVID (4:34:56 PM): Like I've said, try to spell correctly before insulting.
USukTHeBigDiK (4:35:24 PM): lol you think your so smart
USukTHeBigDiK (4:35:34 PM): think u better than everyone
dot VIVID (4:35:44 PM): If I thought that then I would be.
USukTHeBigDiK (4:37:04 PM): u gay as hell
dot VIVID (4:37:22 PM): Oh, dear. Cat got your tongue? |
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| Quite an interesting IM... |
[Sep. 26th, 2003|10:40 pm] |
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| | Hikaru Utada || Hikari | ] |
Okay. I know. I'm updating in retrospect. I initially posted this entry to preserve the IM... I have no idea who's doing this or what. (Oh yeah... AIM decided to screw up near the end. That away message is mine, not his. The idea of him having a KH-related away message.. Ugh!)
USukTHeBigDiK (7:45:33 PM): hey fag
dot VIVID (7:45:46 PM): And this pertains to me.. How?
USukTHeBigDiK (7:46:00 PM): u fag u need to leave cental we want all straight guyss at our school u fag
dot VIVID (7:46:08 PM): And?
USukTHeBigDiK (7:46:22 PM): stf^ fag go away from central
dot VIVID (7:46:36 PM): At least have the decency to type correctly before insulting.
dot VIVID (7:46:43 PM): Maybe then I could take you seriously.
USukTHeBigDiK (7:46:56 PM): well see monday after u get jumped lol its gonna be funny watchin the fag get beat up
USukTHeBigDiK (7:47:07 PM): watch out monday
dot VIVID (7:47:14 PM): I'm so scared.
USukTHeBigDiK (7:47:26 PM): lol u are tiny
dot VIVID (7:47:34 PM): Is this how you boost your ego?
USukTHeBigDiK (7:47:37 PM): u bench maybe 40 pounds
USukTHeBigDiK (7:47:50 PM): well see monday who is laughin
USukTHeBigDiK (7:48:09 PM): we gonna be the chink right out of u fag
dot VIVID (7:48:16 PM): And?
dot VIVID (7:48:24 PM): Do you think I'm actually going to be scared come Monday?
USukTHeBigDiK (7:48:26 PM): see ya monday u fag
USukTHeBigDiK (7:48:41 PM): lol u better be u think u gonna beat us up or somethin lol
USukTHeBigDiK (7:48:58 PM): u think u can fight or what
USukTHeBigDiK (7:49:01 PM): ??
dot VIVID (7:49:03 PM): "Us." So now you're referring to you and the voices in your head?
USukTHeBigDiK (7:49:22 PM): lol u are a fag fine me ill beat the shit out of u then
dot VIVID (7:49:30 PM): I'm so scared.
USukTHeBigDiK (7:49:34 PM): u fuckin fag
dot VIVID (7:49:45 PM): At least have the decency to type correctly.
dot VIVID (7:49:47 PM): Geez.
dot VIVID (7:49:54 PM): I really don't have time for your little games.
USukTHeBigDiK (7:50:00 PM): lol u gonna be sorry monday
Auto response from USukTHeBigDiK (7:50:00 PM): "What is this place?"
"Is this the answer you've been looking for?"
"This is the world in its true form."
"Maybe our journey meant nothing at all."
USukTHeBigDiK (7:50:28 PM): later fag |
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| A simple anecdote... |
[Sep. 17th, 2003|09:13 pm] |
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| | Myuji || eX dream | ] |
I had always assumed that I knew exactly what people meant when they hated Ms. Medler. I thought I did, too. Until today. Today I learned what it really meant to hate Ms. Medler.
Recently she assigned us this biome brochure project. Alexa, Priscilla, and I pretty much worked our butts off on it. Today we got it back with a grade. The grade, you ask? 85. We got 15 points subtracted because we weren't neat enough, we didn't have enough captions, and for something that looks like "land nic."
THAT'S FUCKING UNFAIR.
We work our butts off for a lousy 85?! I agree with the captions part, but NOT with the un-neat part. At least ours didn't have writing all over the place! (I can't argue for or against the last 5 points... I don't know what the heck a "land nic" is.)
Jordan's group produced a beautifully colorful brochure. I'm dead serious. It was bright and colorful! And what did they get? 85.
Ashley's group forgot to include the plants found in their biome. And what do they get? 100. Mind you, the five things that you needed in your brochure were weather/climate, clothing to pack, plants, animals, and a map of the biome. That really is unfair. A 100 for forgetting to include plants. No offense to you, Ashley, or anyone else in your group, but that really is unfair. We get a lousy 85 because we're not neat or forget captions or something involving land nic but you get a 100 because you forgot plants?
On top of that Ms. Medler decided to spring onto us a 40-ish multiple choice question review 10 minutes before class ended. Why? "Well, since you guys aren't studying for your test tomorrow I'm going to make you study." She basically said enough to the point where you could assume that she wanted all of the questions answered before class let out. And even on top of that I mis-heard one of the pages and ended up doing the wrong page for 5 minutes. So, assuming that there were 40 questions altogether and she grades it on how many you did out of 40, well, I handed her a paper worth a grade of 18. (I only did 7 questions. Remember, I did the wrong page for 5 minutes!)
And as for the studying thing.. Well, yesterday I frickin' wrote down everything I needed to know for the test.
I talked with Ashley and Nicole about this and it turns out that Ms. Medler's done this before to her previous classes, but Nicole doesn't know if she ever counted them towards our grades. She better fucking not! Ashley also hypothesized that she only gave us those questions to shut us up. I hope so.
After Ms. Medler handed me back the grade we made on the brochure I just sat there in stony silence. And as I sat, I began to think. Things I do somehow or another ends up futile. Argue about Ms. Medler about our grade? Futile. I'm dead serious. She'll probably go, "Well, it's your fault you didn't spend enough time on your brochure." Fuck that.
I also got around to thinking about Leo. It's so futile, this crush is. Even if I tell him, 99.9% chance says he's straight... Why me? Why do I always have to fall for the straight guys?
All of this hellishness finally caught up to me. As I was waiting for the bus this afternoon I just broke out in anger and then broke down crying. I couldn't take it anymore. The grade we didn't deserve, the stupid 10-minute review, Leo... It just seemed so... So... Hopeless.
Leo saw me crying. The girls (Samantha, Christina, Tiffany, Kristi, and probably some others) kinda crowded around me and protected me and warded off potential bullies as I stood there crying my eyes out. After some of Leo's other friends left he came over to kinda check up on me. I appreciated that a lot.
...If only. |
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| Just maybe... |
[Sep. 14th, 2003|09:59 am] |
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| | Hilary Duff || So Yesterday | ] |
If I say his name and finally realize that I have a crush on him, he'll be drawn into a world he'll never known had existed.
If I say his name and finally realize that I have a crush on him, you might look at him differently.
If I say his name and finally realize that I have a crush on him, somebody might tell him.
If I say his name and finally realize that I have a crush on him, I'll have moved on.
If I say his name and finally realize that I have a crush on him, you'll know it's Leo. |
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| Lots of stuff to write about... |
[Sep. 11th, 2003|06:42 pm] |
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| | Suga Shikao || Aozora | ] |
Hey, people. I haven't written in awhile.
First order of business... The L.D. Bell Band Mini-Concert!
( Insanity! )
The rest is pretty short, so I won't need to LJ cut it...
JOHN COCHRAN SUCKS. >> I just had to say that.
I recently had a conversation with Cody about what I put in my LJ about him reading my journal. It turns out that, well, he never visited my journal before. He JUST visited that day because Priscilla mentioned that I was mad at him in my LJ.
I don't know what I feel about any guy anymore. It's like... Argh. It's a bad emotional rollercoaster. I don't feel like I should go into detail. I might end up saying things that people will go, like, "You like WHO?!" I am NOT saying anything else until I'm 100% sure on what I feel...
And, last but not least, I've decided to switch out a couple of layouts. Here's a list of the next layouts through February 2004...
October
it's being invaded by the Otherworld .. kamikakushi [the thoughts 18.0]
Comments: {#} delusion(s) >> tu fui, ego eris
Note: This is a layout dedicated to Silent Hill 3.
November
atashi dake no hito xx kamikakushi [the thoughts 19.0]
Comments: {#} page(s) || someone just for me
Note: As if it wasn't obvious enough, this is a Chobits layout.
December
sleigh bells '03 ## kamikamushi [the thoughts 20.0]
Comments: {#} ornament(s) ** decorate the tree
Note: The traditional Christmas layout.
January 2004
auld lang syne '04 ** kamikakushi [the thoughts 21.0]
Comments: {#} resolution(s) ## make a resolution
Note: The traditional New Year's layout.
February 2003
success rate of (almost) 100%! << kamikakushi [the thoughts 19.0]
Comments: {#} retrieved || call the getbackers
Note: As if it wasn't obvious enough, this is a GetBackers layout.
The next Blurty layout will be...
from the murky depths_____donut 5
Comments: {#} ripple(s) ;; drip drip
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| Some people are a bit stupid, really... |
[Sep. 7th, 2003|02:45 pm] |
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| | okay | ] |
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| | V6 || CHANGE THE WORLD | ] |
Today on AOL someone came into the FLCL chat room and started talking about how they were "drinking Saki." Naturally, I went to IM him to correct his error. Do I need to go on about the stupidity that it escalated into?
(NOTE: I decided to get back at his stupidity by reporting him to AOL. The IM went away, and so all I have is what I talked about with Ashli.)
( Stupididdle, away! Part 1 )
I decided to get on AIM and further get back at him. So, I decided to warn him.
( Stupididdle, away! Part 2 )
Yes. I'm aware that I'm sad.
I'll probably update later with the funniness of yesterday's L.D. Bell mini-concert. |
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| Oh, nothing much... |
[Sep. 3rd, 2003|04:42 pm] |
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| | Suga Shikao || Aozora | ] |
You know, this past week I've been learning about inductive reasoning. Inductive reasoning is reasoning from the specific to the general. And, this morning, I got to use inductive reasoning to reach a conclusion about something that was said to me.
Yes, Cody Honolka, I am fully aware that Shawn Gillespie now goes to Central. How do you think I saw him? Do you think I just flipped through the 2000 or 2001 Wilshire yearbook and saw him? No way.
As you can see, I have used inductive reasoning to arrive at this particular conclusion. This morning Cody said to me that Shawn Gillespie went to Central. Now, nobody at Central could even know I was thinking about Shawn unless they had read my journal or were informed by someone who had read my journal. I could easily rule out the gossipping part. Nearly everyone who reads my journal doesn't really go out and spread word. If they tried to, though, they might find a surprise sitting in their e-mail one day.
Anyways, I arrived at the conclusion that Cody had read my journal.
So... I'll say this... Cody, I have no idea in hell what your intent and purpose has been in acting like you have towards me for the past.. Oh.. Forever? What? Do you hate me? I'm really surprised that you haven't gossipped yet. I really wouldn't put it past you. Even after all of these years I really still can't figure you out, and I probably will never be able to.
Getting off the cynical track now, I will say this. Cody, at least try to be a tad bit more careful about what you say to me at school concerning anything in my journal or about my journal. That goes for everyone. It really isn't that smart to just yell "Hey, Shawn Gillespie goes to school here!" from across the room.
Getting even more past the cynical track, I'm grumpily going to apologize to you, Cody, should this seem a little bit too harsh.
Amazing what you can learn when you pay attention in school. |
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| New layout, at last... |
[Sep. 1st, 2003|08:06 pm] |
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| | Hikaru Utada || COLORS | ] |
Yeah, so maybe I was a little late. Blame that on me playing Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Chaos Bleeds, homework, and watching Boogiepop Phantom. I bought the super duper cool ultra limited edition box set yesterday. Goodies galore! :D
This Labor Day Weekend was filled with lots of finales. I was presented with the finale of Buffy AND the last book of Remnants in one day. Sheesh. My thoughts on both shall come at a later date. For now... Quiz results!
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| Um, just because I felt like it... |
[Aug. 27th, 2003|07:45 pm] |
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| | Koda Kumi ;; real Emotion | ] |
...And because Alexa made me...
So, uh, here this post is. Yadda yadda yadda. Oh! I know. I can steal a survey from David...
[ series 1 - you ]
-- Name : David Phan
-- Birthdate : 11-30-88
-- Birthplace : Euless, Texas
-- Current Location : See above
-- Eye Color : Brown
-- Hair Color : Black
-- Righty or Lefty : Righty
-- Zodiac Sign : Sagittarius
-- Innie or Outtie : Innie
[ series 2 - your favorite ]
-- Music : Usually J-Pop or rock. There are exceptions, of course.
-- Comic Strip Cartoon : Garfield.
-- Color : Azul. (That's Spanish for "blue.")
-- Slushy Flavor : Cherry. :D
-- Magazine : Shonen Jump, Official U.S. PlayStation Magazine, or Electronic Gaming Monthly. (Those are three of the four magazines I subscribe to. The fourth is Nintendo Power.)
-- TV Show : Lots of shows to name. ::Nodnod::
-- Song : Lots of songs... But because I can narrow this down...
the pillows - Blues Drive Monster
Koda Kumi - real Emotion
Simple Plan - When I'm With You
Johan Halvorsen - Entry March of the Boyares
Rufio - Still
-- Language : English. Japanese, too.
-- Spice Girl : I still remember their names! :D
-- Subject in School : Naptime. Oh, wait, that's not a subject, is it?
-- Ice Cream Flavor : Anything with cherry in the name. If it's not cherry, it's gotta be Neapolitan or Mint Chocolate.
[ series 3 - what is ]
-- Your most overused phrase on aol : lol
-- The first thing you thought of when you woke up: "It's too early."
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex : Eyes. And hair. And face. How about just the whole person and we'll just leave it at that?
-- The Best Name for a Butler : ...Uh?
-- The wussiest sport : o_o
-- Your best feature : Mind. :D
-- Your bedtime : 10 PM. e_e But I don't sleep until after 11 PM.
-- Your greatest fear : Hm... Dunno..
-- Your greatest accomplishment : Ooo.. Uh... I dunno.
[ series 4 - you prefer ]
-- Pepsi or coke : Pepsi. But Vanilla Coke takes the cake. :D (I haven't had Vanilla Pepsi yet.)
-- McDonald's or Burger King : McDonald's. But I'd take Chick-Fil-A over McDonald's any day.
-- Single or group dates : Single.
-- Adidas or nike : Dunno...
-- Chicken nuggets or chicken fingers: Chicken nuggets
-- Dogs or cats : Either is fine.
-- Rugrats or doug : Man.. I miss those shows...
-- Single or taken : Single. Feg.
-- Monica or Brandy : They haven't sung in a long time, have they?
-- Tupac or Jay-Z : Neither.
-- Shania Twain or LeAnn Rhymes : Kidding, right?
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea : Ew! Tea!
-- One pillow or two : One.
-- Chocolate or vanilla : Choc-o-late. :D
-- Hot chocolate or hot cocoa : Either is fine...
-- Cappucino or coffee : I don't drink either, so it'd be hard to make a choice.
-- Boxers or briefs : Briefs, but does anyone really care? No? Okay.
[ series 5 - do you ]
-- Take a shower everyday? : Yes.
-- Have a(any) crush(es)? : ...
-- Do you think you've been in love? : Mm-hm.
-- Want to go to college? : Yeah, but I have no idea where to go.
-- Like high school? : Technically I haven't gone to high school yet.
-- Want to get married : Sure.
-- Type with your fingers on the right keys? : Hell no. Homerow is EVIL.
-- Believe in yourself?: Usually.
-- Have any tattoos/where? : None. And I don't want any.
-- Have any piercings/where? : See above.
-- Get motion sickness? : I've built up a pretty good immunity.
-- Think you're a health freak? : No. o___o
-- Get along with your parents? : Yeah.
-- Like thunderstorms? : Yes. But if they take out the power I really don't like them anymore.
And, as a cherry on the top, whee, here's a picture of Shawn that Alexa so graciously scanned. Why she did I'll never know. Maybe she's psychic. Oooo.
Come to think of it, how DID she get her hands on a 2001 Wilshire yearbook? |
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| Resolutions should NOT be broken... |
[Aug. 22nd, 2003|09:22 pm] |
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| | Yuki Kajiura ;; canta per me | ] |
Okay. Some of you Wilshire people may remember Shawn Gillespie. Well, he didn't go to Central for 7th or 8th grade, but he's here for 9th. And I just saw him today.
First, let's back up. I never really made it public in my journals, but my resolution for the 9th grade year was to NOT fall for another guy like I did with Austin. It would end up really horribly.
Now, back on track to Shawn Gillespie. Why is he mentioned? Well, damn it all to hell, he'll probably make me break my resolution. Dammit. Dammit. Dammit.
This doesn't mean I'm over Austin. In fact, I get angry whenever I think about Austin getting gawked at for being the "cute new guy." I don't like thinking about that.
And... That's probably it.
EDIT 8-25-03: I realized that I spelled Shawn's name wrong, so I went back and changed it. Oopsies. |
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| Two stories to tell today... |
[Aug. 18th, 2003|09:20 pm] |
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| | the pillows ;; Blues Drive Monster | ] |
Firstly, I've got the layout for November...
success rate of (almost) 100%! << kamikakushi [the thoughts 19.0]
Comments: {#} retrieved || call the getbackers
And my new schedule...
Period 1: Pre-AP/IB World Geography - Harper
Period 2: GT English - Hardin
Period 3: Spanish I - Symonds
Period 4: Symphonic Band - Belle
Period 5: Communications Applications - Ashlock
Period 6: Pre-AP/IB Geometry - Beck
Period 7: Pre-AP/IB Biology - Medler (DAMN)
And now, I present two stories, told in (almost) chronological order.
( Houston )
( First day of school ) |
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| Going on a trip... |
[Aug. 14th, 2003|09:20 pm] |
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| | Akeboshi ;; Wind | ] |
Yeah. I'm heading off to Houston for the weekend. I'll be back on Sunday. (I'm going for a wedding.) As a result, I won't have internet access. All I'll have is my laptop. Bah.
Oh, and I finally finished my Fahrenheit 451 project. Feg. The book had a great plot, but it was poorly executed. |
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| Memes! WHEE!... |
[Aug. 12th, 2003|08:39 pm] |
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| | the pillows ;; Blues Drive Monster | ] |
I'm procrastinating on my Fahrenheit 451 project. Yay!
Oh, and I just realized that today is the 2 year anniversary of my LiveJournal. Isn't that great? I've been entertaining you people (well, at least, some of you) for 2 years. I hope that I'll be able to stick around for 2 more years. n__n Thanks for reading and caring about me. I luff you all. <3
YES. Sean Biggerstaff's that cute guy who plays Oliver Wood in the Harry Potter movies, by the way.
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| Do you believe in fate?... |
[Aug. 8th, 2003|09:26 pm] |
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| |  thoughtful | ] |
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| | the pillows ;; Crazy Sunshine | ] |
Freaky Friday was released in theaters earlier this week on Wednesday. I wanted to go see it, but I couldn't see it that day (too late when I checked the showtimes) and neither could I see it on Thursday. So, today, Friday, was the only day I could see Freaky Friday. To top it off, Chobits volume 7 wasn't even released in my area at the same time as everyone else. So, naturally, I was pissed.
Oh, by the way, Freaky Friday was pretty funny. It's an 8.5 out of 10.
Anyways, I called Waldenbooks earlier today after I got back from Summer Band and, surprise surprise, they had Chobits volume 7.
Before I get even more serious, volume 7 was pretty revealing. I like the manga Zima more than the anime Zima. I really do.
After seeing Freaky Friday, I headed for the mall. I went straight to Waldenbooks, and promptly read volume 12 of CardCaptor Sakura and then volume 13 of MARS. After skimming a little of GTO volume 11 and just sitting there, my mom finally came back and bought Chobits volume 7 and X-Day volume 1 for me. Then, we decided that we could buy Chick-Fil-A to eat at home, since it was only, like, 5 PM. We headed for the food court, and on the way, I saw a very familiar group of people.
I swear, he stood out like a sore thumb.
I waved and said "hi" to Kira, and all I could do was wave to Austin as I walked past. As we passed, it was like we were the only people in the mall. I didn't notice anyone else.
When we reached Chick-Fil-A, I had to sit on the bench. I immediately felt drained for some reason and super tired. Why? I don't know.
Later on, as we headed for Wal-Mart, I began reading volume 7 of Chobits. There was much more than there was in the anime, and I felt myself relating to the story of Freya... It was weird, in a way.
And that brings me to my point. It was totally fate that delayed volume 7 from getting into my grubby little hands. It was totally fate how I couldn't see Freaky Friday until today. It was totally fate how this all happened so I could see Austin again.
In Chobits, the A City With No People books are written by Ms. Hibiya for Chi to help Chi find her "someone just for her." Is it possible that I was fated to be introduced to Chobits to help me find my someone just for me?
While we were heading for Wal-Mart, I thought about something... Would I ever be able to love someone like I did Austin? Would it end up like it did with me and Austin? COULD I love someone else? The answer is... No. I can't. I don't know. Maybe something down along the line will change my mind. I have no clue what will happen later on. But all I know is that I don't want it to hurt like it did with Austin... I don't want to sit pining over someone I can't have... I don't want to know that they can't love me back...
Maybe I'll change my mind.
Maybe. |
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| So I recount the first day of Summer Band 2003... |
[Aug. 4th, 2003|03:51 pm] |
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| | Coldplay ;; The Scientist | ] |
Well, it wasn't so bad. I don't remember Summer Band ever being so funny. We kept cracking up. It was so weird and funny at the same time.
To top off the euphoric feeling of being able to laugh again, Austin stopped by. To tell the truth, I was hoping he would be coming, but I didn't hold out any hope. So imagine my surprise when I turn my head and there's Austin sitting in a chair not far from me. Afterwards I silently hit my head on my clarinet and told myself to not look like a dunce.
Anyways, I didn't get to talk to Austin. In fact, all we did was wave at each other. Oh well. I got to see him one last time before he moved, and I'm happy that I did. (I'm still a little suspicious that Alexa might've gotten Austin to come for my sake, but, eh, I don't think Alexa'd do that.)
So, I guess that's really it.
Oh, yes, and now we, the Band Officers, are to decide the band shirt. Everyone immediately disagreed on "Band." and I was like, "Darn." (We're thinking about having a retro kind of t-shirt. Now that I think about it, those words, "retro" and "t-shirt," should not belong in the same sentence.) I, personally, have no idea what I want on the shirt. The only thing I have strong feelings for are the color of the t-shirt. Light blue is NOT a good t-shirt color.
The lyrics today are of "The Scientist" by Coldplay. After looking at the lyrics for the first time, they scared me. They really did. Why? Let's see if you can figure that out...
The Scientist
Come up to meet you, tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart
Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start
Runnin' in circles
Comin' in tales
Heads are a science apart
Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh, take me back to the start
I was just guessing
At numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science
Science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart
Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh, and I rush to the start
Runnin' in circles
Chasin' tails
Coming back as we are
Nobody said it was easy
Oh, it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start
You should be dating an Aquarius.
20 January - 18 February
Your mate is communicative, thoughtful and caring.
Though he/she can be tactless and rude and
sometimes self-interested, he/she enjoys the
intellectual experience of sex.
What Zodiac Sign Are You Attracted To?
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I kid you not. I did NOT tamper with that quiz result. It scared me a little. (FYI, Austin's birthday is February 15th.)
You're an AIM WHORE!
What kind of AIM-er are you?
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| joukido | | Magic Number | 19 | | Job | Sporting Great | | Personality | Vicarious | | Temperament | Unflappable | | Sexual | Straight | | Likely To Win | A Nobel Prize | | Me - In A Word | Unique | | Colour | White | | Brought to you by MemeJack |
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- Oh well. It's 15 on my Blurty...
- I am SO not going to be a sporting great!
- I've got a vicarious personality? So I'm random?
- Unflappable temperament. Riiight.
- STRAIGHT? A ha ha ha! That's funny!
- Likely to win a nobel prize? I'm not complaining. :B
- YES. I am unique. :D |
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